Now its been 2017 and the weird thing is I am 21 years old and still do the blogging. but the old fashion is kind of my thing. most of them. So now my life couldnt be any better than before, i guess, but i do feel changes in me. i mean, i am supposed to change, to be a better one, but no one knows what is better until they know it was actually worst.
speak of 21, i admit that i have to think more on my future such as you know, the grown up stuff,such as money, partners, money, job, money, marriage, money, kids, money, grandkids, money, deadth, and money. i am not a materialistic girl(duhh) but i look like one. haha. some of my friends, already have a husband, have a kid, and have everything. i am afraid looking at them, because i am not achieving any one of it. i always think that i am still young but sometimes i always think that i am old. its confusing haa...
now i am taking degree in IIUM Kuantan (so official, haha). im taking applied plant science. yeahh i know, PLANT. i wonder where do i got the interest ( #thanksmom ) but trust me, i never been interest in it (yet). i love study. i admit it, new knowledge makes me feel that im more stupid than i've ever know. but i hate competing, since school i am. science, the nature, its all the beautiful things in this earth for me, but 'exam' is the place where all the beautiful thing is gone in your mind.
next, partners. fairy tales dont come easily. what you expect is what you never get actually. i do have my very charming boyfriend. but he's 21 also and he is kind like a very responsible man, and have many things to be responsible with, and i am not one of his yet. we never declare to break up, but since... i hate talk about this. so next...
so, i guess im done here. till the next post, see ya...
xoxo,
p.j.
